of our nature

I am tying to turn over a new leaf of sorts. I know this is true because I cleaned up around my desk at work today. (That is kind of a rarity.) I want to appriciate things more. I have learned a lesson through all of this. Some things are not worth the amount of brain that I give them. There has always been this "other" life that has taunted me. My life really isn't a high stress kind of life. I am an english teacher for god sakes. I should be able to hit some sort of nirvana-like state if I try.

It's funny. This desire is maybe the central most theme in all of my entries in this blog.... a blog that is coming to a close sometime soon by the way. I want to find peace. I think I might just know how to get there now. I think it comes from perspective. I am going to make serious strides into putting my attention in the right areas. I want to slow things down a bit, maybe take less time with the TV (I don't watch a ton now... but I do spend some time there) and more with my family. I want to see my job for what it is. It's important, but sometimes I think I blow my own value out of proportions... the world of student success is not completely resting on my shoulders. I need to let silence live in our house when its possible. I need to have unscheduled time with my kids, and with Jenny. I need to focus on what is truly important, breathe it in and let it take the position in my life that it deserves: the better angels of our nature.

I am ready for this.

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