Ive been feeling a bit beaten up lately. Man, I really needed to get away. I remember in college, I used to go across a bridge that spanned the Connecticut river, and I used to feel this impulse... massive urge, to go and jump in, let the water carry me to the ocean. I am feeling that way right now. I really needed this vacation to calm me, and it didn't come through.
I need to find center... peace... silence. I deal with too many people, have too many responsibilities, not enough space to breathe. I need to be able to unravel a bit without losing the balance of my job, family, life. It's hard right now. I am going to bed, hoping to wake up a bit better. I am going to try to go out early with Chauc... maybe spend sometime breathing that early morning air.
goodnight
db
i understand this. i don't have a kid yet but i know i will have days that feel like this when i'm begging for peaceful time alone.
ReplyDeletei hope your early morning walk helps!