Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Christmas Eve


Christmas Eve always means partying with my Mom's side of the family. I love them... a lot.  We have a men's and women's yankee swap. We celebrate my Gramma's Birthday. There is so much food that it becomes impossible to stop eating it. I almost look forward to it more than Christmas morning... almost. I could really go on forever about how much I love them all. It is hard though to really get across, without going on and on, the sense of family that I have when I am with them.

Let it be enough to say that I miss them all, and that I look forward to this party all year long.







Chaucer in December



I woke up nice and early and went out for a walk this morning with Chaucer. I only intended for it to be a quick walk, but it turned out to be a pretty interesting, and much longer, experience. It was pleasantly cold. Some mornings that I walk with Chaucer in the winter are just plain cold cold. This one was crisp and nice. I was only going to walk to the river and back but as I neared the small bridge, Chaucer took off and met up with a man getting out of his truck. I have seen him around the park before, I have even spoken to him before. I used to think he was a ranger, but he isn't, just a hunter and dog enthusiast. His name is Dennis. He has two Labs, one yellow and one black. I went up to retrieve my retriever and he was patting him and taking out his own two dogs. I was ready for those cursory and quick "hi's" and "have a nice day's" but to my surprise he asked me to walk with him and his dogs. He was going to, as he always does, allow his dogs to ferret out pheasants in the fields and shrub brush that grow along the banks of the river. I.. to my own surprise... said "Ok."

Chaucer and his yellow lab, the male, didn't get along very well at first. Chauc isn't aggressive in the least, but he is really playful and sometimes other dogs, especially older dogs, don't take to that very well. They growled and played the whole "whose dominant" thing for a while, but the eventually calmed down and ran around together. The black lab (female) was friendlier until Chauc tried to get "too" friendly and she let him know that she wasn't interested, in no uncertain terms.

Dennis'  dogs are hunting dogs. They have been trained since they were 5 months old. It is pretty cool to see them do their thing. Dennis would point in a direction and both dogs would go off... about twenty feet away, and do these figure eights. They would then slowly trace their way back to him and that was that. A couple times they caught scent of a bird, signified by them wagging their tales in this spiral pattern. (the faster they spun their tales the stronger the scent). They never spooked up any birds, I guess a rarity in his experience, but it was great to see them do what they were born to do.

Labs really are born birding dogs. Their bodies come equipped for it. A lab's fur is hollow (to keep them warm after getting wet in the pursuit of ducks). Their feet are webbed. Their actions are instinctively aimed at retrieving game. I have seen it in Chaucer, even though he has never been trained for hunting in the slightest. If I throw a stick, he will fetch it and not bring it directly back to me. 9 out of 10 times he will run past me and then circle back to me and give me the stick. I have even seen him shake it out before handing it to me. This is all in an effort to bleed the thing out a bit before giving his game over to me. He just does it... programmed in.

When I was ready to go, Dennis handed me his card and asked me if I wanted to train Chaucer to be a bird dog. Chaucer is a very big lab... not one of those petite, long-nosed ones. He has a huge head and is very muscular. Dennis kept on commenting on what great shape he is in, and I have to admit, Chaucer has these back legs that have visibly huge muscles in them... probably a combination of genetics and the fact that I hike him out so often. I was kind of taken aback at his invitation. I wasn't expecting it. Dennis told me that when a dog trains with dogs that are already well trained, the training goes really fast. He asked me if I wanted to go with him to a private reserve in Connecticut that he and his friends go to in the off season. (Visions of "the Most Dangerous Game" flashed through my head)  I am not a hunter. Really... I don't have a lot of desire to shoot things and eat them. I am an outdoors kind of guy... just not really a gun kind of guy. But something in me wants to go. I just want to see Chaucer in his element. I don't know. It just seems so republican. "I am going out bird hunting with the guys today my wife. Maybe we can talk about money over a fire when I come home and I can smoke cigars and wear a tie." I don't know... it's just not me.

Still though, I still have his card... maybe. We walked through the brush on these barely visible paths, Chaucer followed his dogs and I could tell he was loving it. We walked for about an hour and finally decided to give up the hunt. No pheasants had scared up and apparently we were at the end of his route. Chaucer was acting satisfied and had no problem walking with me away from the other two dogs. As we were taking our last turn back toward my car, at a place where I normally throw sticks into the river for Chaucer to retrieve, a huge explosion of whooshing pops scared me senseless as a pheasant flew out of the pine trees just ahead of me.... Chaucer remained unimpressed.

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Of goats and God

Our Christmas Service at Cana Community Church is at a barn. I love saying that. It's true, we do meet at a barn. A real barn. There are rabbits and guinea pigs in the same room with us and goats and chickens just around the corner. We meet at the Heifer Project here in Rutland. We started meeting there because the college that we used to meet at was closed for the holidays... we couldn't meet anywhere else, so off we go, out to the barn. Sound familiar?

Christmas service appeals to me on so many levels. I am really not a city person at heart. I deal well with meeting every Sunday in Worcester... but I much rather being around here in the woods. Heifer is nothing if not in the woods.

Christ came to earth and was born in a stable... and we have made palaces... truly... palaces to try to meet with Him again. I love good architecture, don't get me wrong. Those buildings were made to inspire and awe us and I am one of those that are truly affected by their beauty. Get me in front of a stained glass rose window and I will stare for hours. I just think that while beauty is wonderful, God is something more wonderful if we allow Him to be humble and low... as He wanted to be. Christmas in a barn is good.

The Heifer Project is a National, Non-Profit organization created to sustainably feed impoverished people and nations. It isn't just a barn, it is a barn with a mission and that mission is, in my mind, perfectly aligned with what the true mission of the church should be.

We sing Christmas Carols and read passages from personal accounts and from the Bible. We have communion in the cold with the barn animals around us. I love it when things fall into place... when everything aligns, and I love Christmas Services at my church.

btw... if any of you reading feel so obliged, Heifer takes donations... you can donate animals to families in other countries... they make it pretty easy. Just click here and be taken to their donation page.

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Christmas before Christmas



We had Jenny's side of the family down for Christmas today. Jenny made scalloped potatoes with carrots and string beans. She has a killer recipe for scalloped potatoes and we made the mother load this morning. Two huge, 2 foot by 1 foot pans of the glorious stuff. She actually baked an entire ham last night for three hours just for the scalloped potatoes today. It smelled....very very good in here, all day long. Polly and Rich showed up early and helped Jenny out a ton. It was nice to have everyone here. Henry got his first Magic the Gathering cards (these may be the first of many steps down that road) and Nora got a couple Barbies and Mousetrap (we have already played a game and it is far easier than I remember when I was little... more fun too). Among a spattering of gift cards (all very much appreciated), I got season one of Gilligan's Island. I can't tell you how happy I am about that. I have already watched the first of 36 episodes.

Gilligan's Island is dear to me. It is what I remember preferring to watch when I was tiny and sick.. and not so tiny and not so sick. I love the show... it is the macaroni and cheese of television shows. Nothing overly spicy (although there is that Marianne). Nothing too meaty. Nothing but soft, gooey, pleasant melt in your brain goodness. It started in 1961, ten years before I was around. When I was old enough to start watching it, the reruns ran constantly on 25 and.... I think 56... and I sat and let the captain's meaty hands sweep the time away.

The show doesn't run on TV anymore, and I am really thankful for the Hawkins' thoughtful gift.

Just sit right back and you'll hear a tale, a tale of a fateful trip...

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The Queen




It has taken this long for me to build up enough courage to walk up to some stranger and ask if it is alright to take a picture of them.... almost a year. She was really nice about it too. She, of course, works for Dairy Queen, and is holding my favorite Ice cream of all time... the renowned "Cherry Sundae with salted peanuts" I know I have written about it before. I know I have mentioned its tart, deeply tasty goodness, but it is worth mentioning again.

We remortgaged our house today.... a much better rate, and really all thanks to Jenny. She pursued it and is responsible for our saving a ton of money in the long term. It is strange to hear money of this amount talked about..Crazy to hear that kind of money mentioned so casually. A couple of days ago I was watching Selling NewYork. The show follows three realty companies as the sell apartments to people moving around New York city. These people have so much money. It's crazy actually for me to think about it. We have a nice little house. It is comfy... and really, quite little, even by standards around Rutland. I'm happy, don't get me wrong. We are doing just fine with what we have... It just amazes me when someone with real money talks about it. It's like a whole different world than mine. And there seem to be quite a few people swimming in that quite of wealth... I mean honestly, New York couldn't be described as small by any means, and it is packed with people spending tons of money attempting to live there... and New York is only one of many many cities in the US... and now lets talk about the world... There is a lot of money out there. This specific episode saw a woman looking to rent an apartment for $15,000 a month. She wasn't satisfied by the location and settled on an apartment in a better location for $26,000.

This is beyond my imagining. I know I am a teacher. I get it. I don't really work for money. I work for time spent with my kids, but man, if I could just have a tiny taste of money like that, it would solve a lot of difficulties around here. How do you even earn that kind of money? I thought about what those people, the realtors and the buyers, would think about our house. I can only imagine it would be just as impossible for them to imagine living here, in our, essentially, one-room-downstairs, open concept, tiny tiny little cape of a house. I like my life. I do. But there are worlds I know nothing about.

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Monday, December 17, 2012

As Glass



Ice storm. It is cold and difficult. It took about half an hour of warming up the car to cut through the stuff.

It was really a hard day all around. I haven't watched the news. I listened to NPR on the way to school and I do know the generalities of the school shooting in Connecticut. We had a two hour delay today, but I got to school pretty much at the normal time. I walked in to the nearly deserted school, and it wouldn't leave my mind...Of course it wouldn't leave my mind... I hold this place to be a place of safety and of love. To have the thought of that shattered in such a way is to lose a great deal. I believe in a public consciousness. I believe that people together create an understanding and that our hopes and futures are built on this. School is meant to be a place of building understanding and trust.... of learning about life, about who we are and about how to negotiate through what life hands us successfully. The world took a terrible hit Friday.

It is a complex and tragically awful thing that happened. It is not as simple as gun control or no gun control. It is a mishandling, a terrible and impacting result of loose ends that came together in the worst way possible. We can call it evil, and it is, but it is also human. We can jump to call it other than that. I know that I want to do just that. Call it something that is beyond us. Make it so foreign as to be completely alien. But here it is in our laps...one state away.

I have avoided any pictures of the shooter. I don't want to see his face. I don't want to draw conclusions based on his race, wealth, position, expression. I am not entirely sure why. I just don't want to see him. I want him to be this amorphous human that exploded everywhere and destroyed the absolute thing that I hold to be most dear.... children. Henry's age. God help me I just don't want to see him. I don't want to know why... Can we really ever know why? Isn't the question too desperate? Too beyond my understanding?  I don't want to hear news programs jump to the best fitting conclusion that they can come up with, because I know that it will be so much more than that. I don't think we can just write it off as mental illness... Of course it is mental illness. It can't be anything other than illness.

I walked into school today dreading the questions that might be raised. I have no answers. No real answers. I want to assure them that they are safe, and statistically, they are very safe. But deep down I am questioning the same things they are. Not that the school that I work in isn't safe. It is. But that deeper question. Am I safe? Are we all safe?      The unthinkable just happened.

Are we safe?

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Contrition



Henry met greatness today. Santa came to visit the cubscouts. He was a pretty great Santa too. I could see the tension building in Henry. Nora just completely refused to go anywhere near him. Henry knew that it wasn't the real Santa... but it WAS Santa's helper and I think that the direct connection was almost too much for him to bear. He went right to the back of the line. I saw him fiddle with his hands while he waited. When he got there, next to the one that judges him to be worthy or not, he kept his eyes averted, his voice was so low that Santa had to ask him twice what he wanted. He was nervous... I know what he really wanted: Skylanders (I am betting that Santa has that in the bag for him this year anyway btw) but instead of telling him what he really wanted, he went with what the kid ahead of him went for: Pokemon.

He was actually pale when he walked away.... I could read his thoughts right from off of his face, "thank      god      that     is     over."

Santa has some serious power.

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